At the end of the film, Cobb finds catharsis when he finally sees the faces of his children.  Cobb finds peace whether the film is just a dream or reality.  That begs the question, would one rather live happily in a dream or live in reality?  Similar to another film I’ve seen earlier this year, Shutter Island.  Shutter Island asks the question – would you rather die as a (dream) hero or live as a (reality) monster?  What if the world I live in now is just a dream.  Maybe an idea planted in my head.

I lean towards Inception’s ending being real.  One, it’s simpler to understand that the end was reality.  Second, Nolan might be wanting to make people doubt the reality of the ending by planting an idea that the whole film might be a dream.  That makes the whole movie the inception itself.  The movie, the idea of a dream, planted in our minds like a seed and it steadily grows.   Look at the number of people (including me) who have already been enslaved by reading theories and trying to think what actually happened.  The seed has been planted.  Look at how it grows.

This life can be a dream or reality but same with the movie, does it matter?  I don’t believe so.  I enjoy every exciting happy moment and struggle through every painful and sorrowful events.  I love my life.  What if love is a dream?  Does that matter? No.  The only thing that matters is that I’m happy.  Who cares whether it’s real or fake.  I live my life growing up and living it.

Let’s take it further to metaphysics and religion.  Does it matter there is an afterlife?  How about purpose?  What if life is meaningless?  In my world view, it doesn’t matter.  I still enjoy and hate living equally whether or not I live without purpose.

Everyone strives for perfection.  Everyone wants things to be perfect.  People will always aim for that perfection but end up depressed.  These people will be blinded by unattainable greed and be striving for the really impossible.  Isn’t that a pessimistic thought?  Certainly not, only fools dream they can achieve the impossible and when these idiots fail, they become miserable.  Real optimists would strive for difficult but reasonable goals.

Am I perfect?  Certainly not.  There are things I want to improve in myself and slowly I’m moving towards my goal yet I feel great cause I’m doing everything I can to be everything I can.  Is Aiza, the girl I love, perfect? Certainly not.  She certainly has flaws but everything about her brings me to new levels of happiness and energy.  As a couple, are we perfect?

A diamond is a piece of carbon.  A really hard piece of carbon that looks like a crystalline rock when you get it from the earth.  It takes a jeweler to actually cut and shape that piece of rock to become a pricey diamond.  So our relationship is similar to this.  We’re still a bit rough on the edges, flawed and stuff needs to be cut.  Yet day by day, we sparkle and grow in value exponentially.  Will we be the perfect diamond?  Nope but our value will be so high and love so strong we last a lifetime.  Now that’s perfection.

Amazingly, my phone clung on after driving to several interchanges and several turns.  I think I noticed something drop off to the side of the car much later but didn’t really think it was anything.  I only realized I left my phone on the roof when I was just a couple of minutes away from home and turning back would take another half hour.  I found out about the travels of my roof clinging phone on the next day when my girl friend told me someone texted her that he had the phone and I had to go to his area (slums) to pick it up.  No way am I going to the slums.  I might pay more than the phone is worth.

This is what happens when you’re stupid.  How stupider can I get?

Yet despite the difficulty, we will succeed.  Would you think we would survive as a race if we just lie down and waited to die?  We will overcome the problems of the world because we are stronger and smarter.  We may not know when we might be fired from our jobs or when we might get infected with a life ending disease but we can control how we react and handle these things.

We could not have reached the moon if we thought it was not possible.  We could not have made towers which touched the sky.  We could not have machines that can compute several thousands of equations in seconds.  We encountered a problem and we overcame it…

Invictus by William Ernest Henley

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

Dear My Future Self,

I fallen in love with this perfect girl.  Aiza Belle Ridao, the name of that being I wish to spend my life with.  Is she the one for me?  Will we be together several hundred years from now? (oops gave away my immortality!)

I don’t really care.  She’s the one.  I know it.  Aiza, I know you’re reading this…I didn’t really want to post this publicly nor put this pic to the left up haha.

Mike and Rich, thanks for the advice but no way dude, me posting this is the answer.

1. Well one year wait is a good test, if the two of you both have to wait then it’s more or less a guarantee that you’d last long in your real relationship.  You’d get to know each other more before really going official.

- counter point: waiting too long though might change yours or your partner’s mind at one point or another.  It would be really be bad if someone else scooped up your partner while you are still obsessed with her…uh oh… depression…ugh 500 days of summer… if you were official, no need to think of them cheating on you (unless they were actually cheating on you)

= = counter – counter point: how can you be hurt if it never really was… but a mere infatuation…

2. You aren’t official – no one can tell you what you may or may not do.  If you don’t tell your girlfriend / boyfriend “I love you” cause you were too sleepy one night then that would cause a big dent in a relationship because each side is demanding.  If you don’t tell your friend “I’m your friend” at night, no biggie, they know you’re still friends.  Friends are less demanding and more supporting than lovers (really? well kinda in someways).  Less trust issues.  Freedom.

- counter point: you’re suggestions don’t have any real weight cause you’re just a friend, you aren’t “close” as in lovers close

3.  No anniversaries – no need for gifts (besides the occasional friendly gift) – no need to remember dates.

- counter point: no special moments because there are no anniversaries and special dates…

Are you reading this Kitty?  I should really keep my blogs private… but I want feedback … post a comment below if you have something to say.

I guess it also boils down to the society and each individual.  There are liberals and conservatives in every society but in some societies one group just vastly outnumbers the other.  Why are prostitutes considered “undignified”?  Is it because society dictates women must be chaste?  Shouldn’t they be revered as they take in all the lustful men, they’re sacrificing their “dignity” so they can have a living.  If most women were less chaste, then I guess there wouldn’t be any real need for them.  Haha I recall someone saying, “the most expensive sex is free sex”.  I guess taking girls on several dozen dates, giving trinkets and emotionally supporting them does cost a lot more than just going to a prostitute – paying a fee and doing the deed.

What if women were the dominant ones?  Women do outnumber men now in the world (has there been another war to cause this or has homosexuality become acceptable again?).  In terms of supply and demand, since men are less in supply, women should be the one demanding?  I’m speaking nonsense and rambling again really.  Post your comments up and speak your thoughts…

Oh quick edit … some interesting links:

Why Stay A Virgin? – Community

The confines of marriage can only protect against so much – Community

He’s the type of person who won’t listen to anyone else but himself.  Dad would rage and tear the room apart should things not fall his way.  I know he’s being just looking out for my welfare but he shouldn’t be such a dictator.

I leave then my father will just go do his thing on my younger brother.  Would it be better I take in the heat?  There’s a saying that cockroaches never die and my dad is one large cockroach.

Freedom seems so good.  I’ll lose a few things here and there but the satisfaction of getting away from that looming dark cloud looks like it’s worth it.  Of course, I won’t have enough money to send my kids to school (in the city that is).  Thankfully, I’m fine with having no kids.  No kids means money for myself (and my wife if ever) and I don’t turn into a dysfunctional father myself.

Did I write this sort of thing a year ago?  Damn the cycle.  I guess I’ll talk to him…probably will lead in an argument and either I decide to leave or he kicks me out.  Either way, I’ll savor the fresh scent of freedom.